I can only speak for myself, but whenever I say the sentence I'm lacking in motivation! I'm usually just trying to sugarcoat the fact that self-doubts have hit me - once again.
I'm one of those people, who get overly excited about starting something new. I come up with great ideas, do anything possible to turn these ideas into real life things, but when it comes to further pursuing what I've dreamt of, I suddenly lose it.
I recently scrolled through my blog after not writing a single post in almost six months - and I got sad.
Believe me when I say that I've worked hard on this blog. I'm a perfectionist. And this blog had to be perfect too. Sleek, chic, monochromatic and professional - that's what it had to look like. I've spent days on the layout until I was satisfied with the final look of it. But when I was finally finished with the layout and had the chance to write posts, my usual demons decided to pay a visit.

"English isn't your mother tongue - why would you write in English then?!"
"You don't have a  professional photographer to take your outfit shots!"
"Nobody will read your blog anyway!"
"You're not pretty enough!"
"And most importantly:
  you're hella boring!"
...

It's always the same with everything I touch and put my head into. I'm brave enough to do the first step, but if the first step isn't an immediate success, I'll give up.

After getting hit by self-doubts regarding my blog, I told myself to 'rest' for a week and get back to blogging after clearing my head. - But I didn't. One week without a post had passed, then one month and eventually half a year.
First, it was still the self-doubts that stopped me from even going on my blog, but eventually it was just embarrassment that came up when I thought about the person that I am. - A person, who only dreams about certain things but never actually fights for her dreams.

Bullying and constant criticism were the reason why I turnt into the person I am today. A person without any will power, who gives up whenever the road gets slightly more difficult. But I don't want to live like this anymore. I need to finally learn that one must fight for their dreams
- and that's what I'll do now.

"Success is not a destination, but the road that you're on. Being successful means that you're working hard and walking your walk every day. You can only live your dream by working hard towards it. That's living your dream." - Marlon Wayans

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